school is.
actually now school, i've concluded.
i don't think i've actually ever been to school in the past 4 years, haha.
so i spent my whole first day trying to find people in my class. and i eventually found them. it's not that bad. just random pickings here and there, and i need to get used to it. really.
i'm so quiet in class. i barely talk, rather even more. or do anything. lots of notes and concentration. maybe its better that way.
greco even said getting me to talk is like pulling teeth. that whole analogy. acck, i need some time i suppose.
my teachers are all the funny type. and idk. it makes things kind of interesting, but it makes me wonder if theres anything deeper, underneath.
nard and greco are quite the opposite of nina, and alban is just. alban, haha.
i really love dr. nina a lot, idk why. but. who knows, who knows. everything is too early.
i like the fact that i have lunch with almost everyone now.
today i finally saw czander! (lol)
freshman are huge. and yeaaaah (scene) haha.
ummm nothing really.
oh! besides the fact i took my first quiz of the year and got a 100 already. haha.
i'm skilled bitches.
its just going with the schedule and curriculum so far, its not that scary.
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i've been going to cvp after school the past days.
its nice nice nice.
and mcd's. and a big mac! wooooooooooo.
my brother and rob are so silly, haha.
and when dylan shannon rob and me get together our conversations are so. ridiculous. haha.
there was even this puggle in the park today! me and rob were petting it and feeding it attention.
even though it was allover me (sigh) i couldn't help but giving in and letting it lick me and what not.
i'd like to get better in tennis, and maybe even eventually join the team, but who knows.
i'm even thinking about musical theatre this year, but i'm not sure.
theres already a lot on my plate.
this is the year where i'm going to test run everything. put as much as i can on my plate and see if i can handle it. if i can, maybe i can do anything.
i'm going to try and fix some of my commitment issues, but i'm not sure.
there's a lot of things i'm unsure of and afraid, but really. i don't know.
and it feels a tad good to say that. but also. very very bad.
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i feel so out of place a lot.
i feel like a freshman again, and i'd rather just be one again overall.
end of that. forreal i miss freshman year.
my class my FRIDAY. oh jesus FRIDAY COME BACK!
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i always try to put love on the backburner when it moves straight to the front. i can't help it. i can't. its just so. oh man.
i'm trying, really.
theres nothing to try for, but isn't that the point?
to see what you'll end up with.
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i'm going to conquer the world this year.