killing is so absurd, since actions speak louder than words.

yeah, i know. what a dork i am. but, she amazes me in every which way.
this quaint, little russian women (which, i'm not sure, but everyone always says, 'well, she's russian' like its a bad thing, or like i'm supposed to know what that means.) that holds everything within her. such great knowledge, and feeling. i've never seen it built to the magnitude that she is. as soon as she opens her mouth you know it is something brilliant, her words that come flying out at you like a flock of butterflies. i bet everytime she says a word, a flower blooms! ah, how amazing she is.
she says things to me that astound me, even in all their simplicity.
the things she says kill me. especially when they're just to me.
"sarah, you're so smart. you think well and outside of the box. keep doing that, never stop."
"sarah. thank you so very much. for everything. for caring."
as many times as those things have been said to me. i can't help but die when she says them to me.
fucking kills me.
you know, when sometimes in those movies, when the teacher will come along and adopt the child, or take them under their wing and all that and a bag of chips.
oh boy. dr.nina does that to me. and how i love it! i adore her so much.
anyway. enough of that.

i'm not sure whats wrong with you. but you're not talking to me about any of it!
all of the actions that your body is conveying, and that look on your face.
you fucking kill me too. but for all the wrong reasons.
and.
omfg you're soooo cute.
:D teehee.