re-entering upon leaving.

nothing is ever free in the world.
after living in the world for sometime, i would hope people come to this thought, and realization.
i'm not necessarily talking monetary value, either.
whether it is karma, love, happiness, depression, or joy, there is always a cost.
& once again, no matter how long it takes to realize that, it is true.
its also probably cause, and effect, but it all makes sense, don't you think?
nothing is free without causing you something.
nothing at all.
besides.
death.
anyway, on a happier, gigglier note!
in terms of life, my birthday is coming within a week! but i'm not one to really talk about it. i think everyone else's birthday is more important than mine, really.
um, hm. i'm not asking for much, if i'm asking at all.
ideally i'd like money&handmade things, but the materialistic part comes into play. haha.
i already got the coat i've been eyeing out. and jeans.
so i'd like convertible gloves! the ones where you can flip them down, and make fingerless. but knit! and a scarve to match, or just a scarve.
i'd also like a huge tote bag, which i can throw everything into just because i know i can.
i'd like books books books, but good reading material!
and nice effortless pens&pencils.
anything pertaining to fish!
theres guitar hero in my house already, so i don't need that!
and i'd like shoes upon shoes upon shoes.
God knows how many jordan's and dunks i want. ah.
anyway, more realistically! i'm open to anything, really! i'm sure i'll enjoy it.
and i'll probably make my own birthday cake, anyway!
and i know katie will give me and rob arroz con pollo or carne con pollo which i am hap hap happy about!
and.
i'd like to get drunk.
15 seems like such a sweet age to get drunk.
anyway.
money and creativity galore!
oh what am i saying, i know you won't get me anything anyway. haha.

p.s.
i'd also like love.
love from friends and family, yes.
but. ah.
love! the i love you more than i love you love!