starlit nights!

okay, a run down!
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i wanted to stay home like you had no clue, but to be able to go out on friday, i rushed my body to the bus stop in a last minute attempt. i actually didn't miss the bus. damn.
it was a pretty okay day. boring, and what not. double spanish killed me. art, which is working. collages, and mine is too intricate. i really probably am the only one doing that picture, but its okay. no competition, then! um. class class class. i went home early and i did some work and then i crashed. what a boring day compared to that before it.
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school! which is slightly killing me. another normal day.
oh, wait. travis's cousin was here, from pointpleasant. land of the beaches and fake tans because people are too lazy to go work on theirs. right, i didn't mean that in a bitchy way, haha.
everyone has their own thoughts about her, and thats it, i'm not going to bother because she was only here for a day, and if she comes again, thats fine. thats only 2 out of the 365, well 366 (since this year is a leap, right?) days of my year, and i'm a-okay with that.
class class class. nothing special! i miss last year's friday so much. do you remember that? oh man.
free doubleameruoso guidance micro free free shenoda spanish.
which was basically
free ameruoso free free free free free free free.
jesus.
so, the day was over! i went home, and i ate some and at around 4:30 i left to get rob.
you know. being i had a date. with jules.
lol. so what happened was, we all had seperate plans for friday, all over, so we decided to just combine them. it was a lot easier, and very quaint, you know? that group of people may have seemed random, but from what i was around for, i enjoyed it.
cept cat girl. anyway.
we didn't wait long for the bus, and it came and we rode it, duh, and i couldn't say rob's name the whole way, so i didn't. which was pretty hard, you know.
we get there, and we wait for people to show up! and end up at ITG and jean comes, and then shannon and then jaimie and in one burst we're at the food court, jean's eating and dylan comes and then we move to f.y.e and katie comes and then i meet jules. in that bit, we seperate. i go back to the food court, and eat with jules, while they go off and get icecream.
after eating, and jules rushing his food (/:) we head to the theatre, and i'm telling you this kid's really fucking sweet, because he pays for my ticket. not to mention that he also paid for my sushi.
i swear, let me pay, won't you!
we head into the theatre, and coincidentally end up sitting right across from rob, katie & company.
the amount of hightech people inside that theatre scared the shit out of me. but, it was fine!
the movie was really quaint, and i didn't fall asleep like i almost predicted i would, even though my head ended up on jules's shoulder.
the plot of it was fine in intself, i guess. it seems like the typical movie nowadays, almost, but it was good.
not to mention i liked the fact that 'anyone else but you' by the moldy peaches was in it.
i liked the quirky-ness, and the cheese, and it seemed almost comforting, which uh. was kind of odd. regardless! sweet movie, charming and witty. bahaha.
after the movie we all ran into eachother again, and somehow seperated again, so me and jules went off and walked and talked.
i like that combination of walking and talking, especially when its with people i can tolerate, although i believe i can't fucking talk anymore because i'm loosing all of my uh, you know, capabilities. somehooooow, we all ended up colliding again. which was nice.
then jules had to leave, and i walked him to the lightrail. in an attempt for me to not die and get sick again, he told me to go ahead inside. so, i guess i did. goooooodbye.
in the story and happenings of my life, i'm generally hushhush about shit, so yeah. hushhush.
well, haha. i'm pretty sure about 10 fucking people saw and a million other people know, but i'm fine.
i don't talk much about what i do because, then its all talk.
anyway. i rush back to get inside and keep my warmth. we go back out anyway to walk katie to her ride, and meet greco's parents.
lol
head to mcdonald's and get my ass home from a good night.
overall, friday was a really good day, and unlike what other people would assume from uh, spying and shit, i don't really regret anything i did and i'm pretty happy with how the whole date and day overall went.

in case anyone ever, uh, wondered.
i think jules is really one sweet, and cute kid. theres plenty of other adjectives to keep filling that sentence in, but i guess thats all i'll say.
i really adore him, and think he's important, i don't know why, haha, yes, because he's a good kid, but no, i don't you know, like him. like, have intense feelings for him, haha.
he's cute, we go on dates, he's sweet, he pays but that doesn't you know, mean we're bf/gf or anything like that.
he's just, i don't know. something about him, i really enjoy his company, (i would hope he likes mine, bahaha) and i don't mind being his friend at all. one day, maybe we'll be best friends even, but still. i think he's one of those people worth keeping around, because i enjoy them so much, and yeah. i don't know where i'm going with this.
ap ap ap. he's sweet, he's cute, he's taller than me, we go on dates, we talk, yeahhhh we talk, and jules'n'sarah 10108-4eva~ is still intact, but no, i don't like him, i assume that from everything he's told me he doesn't like me, and we're not actually dating.
i'm too young and afraid of commitment to anything.
so, on that note.
uh. leave us aloooone and stop 'spying' lol
on that note also,
its good to meet new people and have them in your life when others are too busy being mad at you and worrying about themselves and leaving.
everyone's always so busy with leaving, i'm so deathly afraid of it.
i'm just way too clingy and like rob tells me, i'm get too emotionally attached to anything so quickly, i'm not sure why.
i don't necessarily think its bad in my own opinion, but if others heard about it when they first met me, they'd probably run. very fast.
i'm a lucky person, i'm beginning to realize.
but i'm also very thankful, i'd like to believe.
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saturday i shopped and uh, did nothing.
i cleared some stuff up.
i don't mind it at all, it seems idea, you know?
i tried to geometry and it worked, haha. no homework, yeah.
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today, i've sat and done nothing, all day.
i'm sick and my head hurts and my eyes hurt and my brain hurts but i feel fine other than that.

i'm happy, i really am.