today was pretty shitty, you know.
it started off with me waking up, and not wanting to be awake, and feeling like shit, and being sore and having a headache.
being last night my fever culminated at 106 and i was seriously spazzing, and all.
my father's been pissing me off, too, and i really want to hit him.
SO MUCH. RIGHT ACROSS THE FACE AND JUST SHUT HIM THE FUCK UP.
because he seriously needs to shut the fuck up.
right, so. i'm up and all groggy from my overdosed meds and i'm all zombie looking (i'd suppose) and yeah.
i drag myself to the shower.
my entire arm is still purple. sigh.
i drag myself out and dress and i cozy and i dry my hair and cozy some more on my bed and i sleep for another 20 minutes. and then i get up groggily, AGAIN, and i get changed and drag myself some more out the goddamn door going somewhere i goddamn don't wanna go to.
bus is late, AGAIN. like every fucking day.
another bus ride where i'm half asleep half awake and i'm trying my hardest kicking back to alkaline trio/brand new and say anything.
i really try. to stay alive. sigh.
school.
i get to homeroom and i get this fucking notice saying no ones paying dues and i'm all rahrahrah you guys suck pay fucking dues and then rahrahrah thank the lord dues are over in february because seriously, i hate them. i've been waiting for them to be gone, i just keep getting over ruled and finally. godfuckingdamn. and rahrahrah wtf castanon you can't blame them because they're doing their shit and you're not.
that is seriously one thing that pisses me off.
when a person or group of people does a complete shitload of work and ONE person completely says they do nothing and that they're doing everything.
RAHRAHRAH BULLSHIT
soooo
rahrah pissed off in geometry and i'm no good in geometry rahrahrah pissed in spanish want to kill maquieria, but she was mad chill and nice today rahrah i hate art because my piece is taking to long rahrah lunch is boring rahrah i'm trying to get your attention all day talk to me rahrah photoshop my computer still doesn't work and lol because fawzy and steven definitely broke that computer lol rahrah i'm so jealous! but i'm really not rahrah fixing student council stuff rahrah abortion discussion in history rahrah i don't like you, i have to talk to steven about you, i seriously don't like you and lol @ the irony rahrah i should seriously STFU in bio because like, i'm answering everything and ahhh it annoys me, too. hahaha
rahrah i have to do another research project
rahrah goodbye to sarah's life!
i go home and i bake, instead.
i have been baking like it is nothing and ahhhh
i sleep a little. watch tv.
i watched courage the cowardly dog.
lol, that show is so aesthetically pleasing to me.
i am so whack.
i get on aim like nothing and i talk to everyone and ughhhh
I MISS YOU >O
(and, i'm so sorry /;
really! i don't know what i did, or what i'm doing, or what happened, but still! pppppplease, come on! i wanna be around youuuuu, come back to meeeee!)
then i get up and beast in bio like duh i'm supposed to and now i am here, again, like yesterday.
sitting, writing this blog, talking to a plethora of people, and i'm not particularly happy and i've kind of got a lot to complain about.
rahrahrah.
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i've got no flow with words anymore.
sucks.