i can't take anything more.
i'm just seriously seriously seriously out of it.
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on another note, i got my laptop up and running again.
even though it included me sitting for an hour crying and mourning the loss of all the files on my computer.
i feel like such shit, i swear.
all of my files.
what hurts more is everything i've ever written, and created and all that, on this laptop here, and its all gone.
what sucks even more is that i lost that piece i was writing for hoa.
jesus fucking christ, i swear, thats what got me crying the most.
the one thing i was writing that probably IS the most important thing to me ever, and its gone.
jesus fucking christ, i swear!
the one thing i thought that could reconnect me and establish me to this one wonderful boy.
now gone. gone gone gone and still going.
fuck fuck fuck fuck.
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tomorrow is valentines day and i'm going to feel like even more shit.
fuck my life.