one more before you go.

the email i registered for this blogger is crazy old; "my.chemically.used.romance"
back for my passion of the used, and my chemical romance, and how i knew that the bandmates themselves were really close.
to this day, i still squeal and squeak at the sound of any of their songs, and the sight of anyone in the bands, especially frank iero. haha. he's a real cutie.
just a tad little crush.
just a tad!
(:
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everybody seems to be going away. whether it's vacation or just going away permanantly, they're going. oh foo, i'll be fine.
i can't help but hurt and miss a lot of people.
especially the ones that are really really close and dear to my heart.
i haven't talked to miss.lin in what, a month? and the same for hoa.
and the only excuse i've gotten to talk to jayson was for naz's party, but besides that, i haven't talked to him in a couple of months.
and when we talked, it wasn't anything really, just current events.
when i think about it, i'm a fucking whimp, and i'm so lazy. i'm not current enough to apologize for little stupid things i've done, along with apologizing just for the simple fact that i don't keep in touch.
i don't call, i don't email, i don't anything. which is so bad of me.
sure, i'm always online, but i'm only online with those also online, which aren't any of the stated above.
idk, i'm pretty horrible at keeping friends, even if it may seem like i have a lot. really, i only have a handful of GOOD, DEPENDABLE, TRUSTWORTHY friends i'd do anything for. maybe a handful and a half. but other than that, i just think i'm too nice, and too willing. i do a lot of things for people, but i really don't consider them friends, and then there's best friends, and on top of that, promised best friends, which means the most.
and upon those promises, are all guys. no girl yet. with the tad exception of naz, and probably monica, but monica, i know i'd already do anything for her. but really.
talking to dylan, i'm not very keen of girls, but idk. they just seem like this whole phase to me, (haha, i almost typed fag. T__T) but i really don't understand. all of the cattyness, and the drama.
i seem to click better with boys, and then dylan told me why he didn't like boys, and i realized he was right, my whole life, i've been surrounded by smart, good, caring and compassionate boys.
i've never even bothered to stick around with assholes, or cheaters, or whores, or anything, and when i look upon it, i'm very blessed and very very very lucky.
and very thankful.
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today, boomer IMd me from shannon's sn, to come to his house and play clue, lol.
i thought it was so random, since i'm really just kinda strangers with him, but since i wasn't busy, i said sure.
and since rob was online, i dragged him with me.
rob actually got to my house on time, and he wasn't even wearing long sleeves, lol.
so we walked to his house pretty fast and we were contemplating just leaving, lol and going to mcdonalds or something, idk, but we went, and ended up at 21, and not 29, but i'm happy that it's 29.
his house is so cool, modern and eclectic. i like the fact that he has bright red doors.
and then, we met his dogs, and while me and rob were trying to not make it akward, we got to his room.
his room is so fucking cool.
lol, thats even an understatement. his walls are literally neon green, and he has this cool closet, and idk, just everything about it is so cool. i like the whole aesthetic, and its very pleasing to me. lol.
he even color cordinates his books! so anyway, we played one game of clue, and i was pretty bad, even though on the way there i told rob i'd win, lol.
so then rob had to go, and we decided we walk around so after talking and walking (and trying not to make it akward) we went to walgreens and scavenged around.
then i went home.
idk, its rather nice and what not. it was nice to actually meet boomer, instead of just talking to him.
now to learn his real name. lmao
he's actually pretty cute, too.
lollllll pedophile, hahahahaha. jk! but he is cute.
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rob, when you go to the philippines, make sure to call! and use the interenet, because it's a splendid thing!
and i want a tote bag! or two!
:D teehee.
just a note for you, lol
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LUWIN, LUWIN!
HA, i win.
lmao, i'm so corny.