i feel. horrible, you know.
i'm not exactly sure why, but i do. i've been feeling so bad about everything i'm doing, and then how it's affecting everyone, and then i go and end up sick.
which makes me feel even worse.
i can't help but feel like i need to apologize, to everyone, for everything, even the little minuscule things, but i really don't want to because i haven't done anything that wrong, and i don't need to look or feel stupid.
feeling stupid and bad. yeah, no thanks.

i feel bad for the situations i'm being put into. not even, more like the situations i'm putting myself into, and the situations i'm putting others into. ugh.
especially for him, i never meant to do any of this to you.
while on another note, i want to know true intentions so i don't end up. being hurt.
because there are no feelings, or no thoughts. and just. whatever.
i don't know if that makes sense.
i don't want to put him in that situation because of what he thinks, because what he thinks is completely wrong because nothing's going on at all.
right?
come on, tell me the truth. please.
T___T

anyway. nothing much has been going on. i guess.
yesterday was the science league test and i took it, and they say i got a pretty high score, so that makes me happy, but i don't want to be on the league. i just took it to get an A. lol
after that danielle and travis started taking travis's cellphone and sliding it around, we stuffed rob into a recycle bin, and we tried to sell some freshman my outlines from ameruoso. lol

i miss you a lot although you don't even know me. i really, really, really do.

on another note.
vegas says he's in town.
get the fuck away from me vegas.
you kill me.
everything filled with testosterone kills me.
WILL YOU PLEASE JUST NOT BE INDIRECT AND TELL ME. TELL ME, PLEASE.
YOUR THOUGHTS AND INTENTIONS.
goddamn.